Cat

Yep, my cat Kiki, its about her.

It has only been 6 months since my cat, Kiki has passed away...it seems like an eternity that she has been away, I have never really given a full account of how it was like...not happy thats for sure.
Here was the scenario:

Happy that Kiki would finally get to a vet and even though I know that she may have one ear amputated, I was still optimistic that she would not be in pain ever again...
Unfortunately and most sadly, I was wrong
I remember the vets immediate diagnosis of cancer, how fast it was, "cancer"...boom..."live or die"

Even though those werent the words the vet said...thats what it seemed to me. The vet had asked that question that will haunt my life forever, euthanise or not euthanise? Kill or not kill? Mercy or no mercy?
I still remember, Kiki's cancer bought her pain, unbelievable pain in fact, if she had to die, she would rest forever, if she lived, the many traumatising treatments of surgery and being locked up indoors await her...

What would you do? Live or die?
I painfully chose the latter, I was the who to decide, I was the one who had this dreadful task...a transaction of $90 later...we were out the door...so fast so quickly. My last glimpse of her as I walked out the door, she was staring at me..."where are you going?" her eyes said..."why are you leaving me!"....those green eyes of disbelief...

I remember crying in the car, and I cant hold back the tears now, on the way home knowing that I won't see her waiting behind the backdoor of the house for us ever again...
The vet's were so close...yet Kiki is so close, but so very far away...

I know...it was all the best for Kiki...though I know she loved me dearly and I so too...the day we had to part was 24th January 2007. She is out of pain...thats all that matters, that she may find peace and that she had found her way into the places of comfort somewhere in the spiritual world.

How easy it is, for a loved one to go...thus I say to my readers:
Love your close ones with all your heart, they could disappear forever from your lives so quickly. Don't neglect.
Kiki's love was unconditional, loved those she loved for who they were, no matter what their values were, no matter what they may have done in the past...

As a Christian, I think can relate Kiki's love to the love Jesus shows us, unconditional love.
I found that very encouraging, that you find something similar to such love in a humble kitty.

It's quite amazing actually, its like as though God created cats just to tell us that He loves his sons and daughters very much and also teach us a lesson of love (and survival...cats can survive by themselves in the wild...can YOU?)

Heh, I know, its somewhat depressing but hey, life is life, I still get teary over it, but Kiki doesn't (Cats dont cry LOL) and whether she is now dust or living in heaven she is out of pain and no longer bears the burden of the earth.
Thats my post done for the time being, hope to catch ya guys soon (somewhere, sometime...)

On an even happier note, I would like to give a permanent...*HUG* to that special person who hopefully will be reading this sometime, you know who you are.

Me and Designing...

Hey again

As some may have noticed, at the bottom of my blog is a 'design' for what I would like my garden to look like if the house I'm living is mine and I get to do whatever I want with it and I have a decent budget at least.

Its nothing flashy, just a black and white and SIMPLE design and has multiple purposes. It's very simple for the fact that simple is good and with the drought, there are boundaries which I cannot cross with designs.

Designing is undoubtely fun...for me that is >_>...of course, its a total personal thing and I usually design for my own personal use, however, there was an occasion of someone desiring a design for their birthday pressie! (You know who you are! :D) But of course, that is no problemo because designing is enjoyable...but time consuming o_O...which actually is a GOOD thing cause it takes me away from gaming and keeps my mind active and innovative.

Designing requires quite a bit of trial and error as well as consideration of other factors during a design such as: Weather, purposes, which plants, how elements relate, etc etc etc.
Cause' I can say "Hey! lets just chuck a nice Cherry Blossom right here!"...but I have to consider factors such as: Its effects on the environment around it and simply suitability, why a Cherry Blossom?, would the Cherry be too large? etc etc!

I know some large trees that have vigorous root systems that are able to tap into water pipes which is a MAJOR problem (a very fine conifer my Grandpa had needed get cut down cause of this)...so thats another factor to take into consideration.

So (if you have read that massive slab of text...I talk a LOT more than you think...) designing is very enjoyable for me because of the imagination you can put into it as well as incorporating my love for trees and plants!

Yayzors (is that yellow text hard to read?)

First one!

Hey...

Uh, I'm not expecting much people to
1) View
2) View then comment
3) Bother XD

Since this blog is being updated and I'm learning to make it super pretty and stuff (>_>") it will be VERY slow and mostly until I "advertise" it around.

I will probably use this blog for different tasks:
1) Just talking about life/other peoples lives and maybe other issues
2) Christianity (yayzors)
3) I might sometimes talk about nature and bonsai, as well as some paragraph long info for bonsai friends if they request guidance or anything

So, uh, enjoy...